Keep Calm and Carry On

So who knew.It was Asperger's. That explains everything. But of course it doesn't solve anything.One lumbers on.

Is it possible to grow with each setback.

Is it possible to believe each time one does a faux pas - that it had a lesson in it - that it is a catharsis of ones ego ......................

Is it possible that one can feel glad when ones hopes - reveals itself as a mirage - that it was a stroke of good luck.

Is it possible to view it as a way of letting go of the obsessive control we demand over our lives...

Maybe it is...maybe it is..maybe it is.

hmm..

The case against Indian super spy Assassins.

All this relates to some obviously well educated correspondent of the esteemed Indian press.

http://ibnlive.in.com/blogs/kshitizsinghal/2670/61556/can-baklava-spielberg-and-mossad-solve-indias-woes.html

So a hundred crappy opinions come out of the news every day- and everyones used to it. I am too. So I don't know why this disturbed me enough to waste time writing about it. Anyway I'm aware its not written with any ill intent - in fact quite the opposite - he was just thinking out loud and frankly thoughts that many Indians have and continue to have. Deal force with force. Terrorize the terrorists. Send our James Bond/Tom Cruise guy(if we have one) to exotic locales to kill the super villains using countless inventive gadgets.

Sure. I'd like that too....and more than that Bollywood spin offs --- Shah Rukh Khan as Kapoooor......Rahul Kapooor.....(ofcourse he has to be Rahul) from RAW with solar powered cookers in his pockets to burn his ID documents and ordering ...." Do Chai - shaken and malai maar ke" with a sexy blonde in a sari near him (of course we Indians approve of only white skin - sorry stunningly beautiful Halle Berry and Zoe Saldana).

Super agent kapoor - jeero jeero ....eh sorry...one billion....tht is one jeero jeero.. (yes hes's an Indian super spy with an accent and we are far too many in number that zeroes usually follow us)

Anyway ...............So it isn't a big deal right, even if you ignore the fact that he might in a couple of years be the face of Indian TV or a an influential editor who controls the headlines. Or even if we know what "opinions" or "questions" just "put out" there on a news channel can do. Fox news being the ultimate case study ( "Is Obama a socialist or does he just Hate America?". Send in your votes at.... )

So what irritated me ? This notion out there among most of us (or am I wrong about that ?) that

everything can be solved only if you use more force, a bigger gun or more ruthless methods. The kind of triumphalistic notion that somehow India is this developed industrialized nation which can spend billions on military stunts....of covert or open nature obliterating its opponents in a fortnight.

Forget the fact that we are a country founded by the greatest humanists of the last century or any century. Forget that they were voices of freedom against tyranny but also of moral conscience. Something which sets them apart from the only remotely comparable people like Washington, Jefferson and the likes. Even if you knock your head against a wall and forget all that, what you would still find pretty hard to ignore is that we would be destroying whtever remains of most of the world's notion that we are fundamentally a "moderate" country - unlike China or...... Israel whom he mentions. Now I'm not an Israel basher - they have their own way of dealing with issues. I do not doubt for a moment that they believe their actions are just and necessary.But the fact is that they have pretty much no great support in the world except for the US. Is that the future we want ?

Unfortunately we are too damn large, too damn important for the future of the world and unfortunately the first nation(if you object - read first free nation of the 20th century) to champion the view that foreign policy views should reflect our basic values and moral convictions. This view is obviously not for those who think that justice is served only if you pump the bastard villain with all the lead in the world .

But, I'm willing to wager that Mossad stuff will come back and bite us in the bum with some stupid botched assasination attempt in a foreign country which will inevitably happen at the hand of our bureaucrats. And I'm not doing the Indian thing of blaming the system - it would probably be because they are underpaid, overworked, careless and with little accountability like the rest of us. To take nothing away from the author, the answer is of course better counter intelligence and counter terrorism. But as always the strategy to win isn't novel it is boring and middle of the road - increase competency and capability of our existing mechanisms - slowly & steadily. Have the long view - one thing I must say we as a people lack.

But...... as for the Indian Super spy Bollywood movie - isn't that a good idea ? For Heavens sake why haven't they thought of it by now !

Wait... I know how it can be done. A malayalam movie has to be made on it with an original script written by mallu writers - then Bollywood might buy it(or steal it) and make it into a movie with a few dance sequences................the super spy does bhangra........at the cocktail party at the G-20

Allright. I hear your expletives. I'm stopping.

Hmm

you have to keep going.
have to keep going.
For some the world presents itself as more of a mystery than it does to others.
So take it as it comes.....with a nonchalant shrug and a smile.
You can maybe add in a sarcastic joke - just like Mr. Bond.... but more Zen like.

The Zen master at church

Things aren't particularly rosy these days.
In ways more than one.
Struggling to handle a lot of thoughts that were threatening to bog me down even further, I decided to go to church.
After a long time.
I'm I have to admit, slowly becoming a liberal, loosely spiritual kind of guy with no firm religious rooting.
In american lingo tis called "secular"-one who believes in no particular religion/no firm religious convictions -its a negative term here - bandied around a lot by the republicans against the democrats/liberals.

That is strange, because coming from an Eastern orthodox church background, esp the indian syrian orthodox church - rituals (of which going to church is the least demanding) are everything. As is typical of all eastern religions.

Atheists like Dawkins have said that the "peace" that you feel in church - the "upliftment" of your spirits when you attend mass on sunday is a kind of a positive "mass hysteria".
But Hysteria neverthless - that being his point.
And I attend the St.Mary's catholic church here (once in a while).
For the very religious reason - that it is a stone throw away from my aptmt.

My point is that catholics too are often caught up in their rituals and rules - obsessively so....the priests I mean, not the people.
I'm wrong . The people are also as obsessive in their belief, or the public display of it- almost as obsessive they are in breaking it come friday night party time. But that's allright. One has to be young and foolish at some point and make mistakes. And I guess live upto the american way of life - which is "unlimited freedom" to do whatever it is one wants to do ? :P
Ofcourse I'm being sarcastic.

So the sermons aren't all that interesting - it mostly deals with the church and its customs - mostly it is light hearted banter. The kind of advice you wont feel too bad in breaking. And even if you do, you can come back next week. All this,ofcourse isn't the reason I dont go often . I'm not throwing the "Stone" in biblical terms without taking into account my failings.
I'm mostly lazy and now increasingly becoming "secular" if I'm a bit harsh on myself.
And the undergraduate kids holding hands, cuddling and kissing in church make me uncomfortable. Come on , I'm a smalltown Indian Kid(not any more) with tons of cultural baggage (indian+malayali+ orthodox christian) and added to that significant personal baggage too. :P

But isnpite of all this I went and the weeks sermon was idelightful - unusually so.
Not because of the speaker was good or intersting or inspiring or insightful. He was average, but the message itself touched me.

Now I cant quote the exact words, but Jesus asks his disciples to go out into the world and preach the gospel. And he tells them, travel lightly, lightly to the extent not even a change of clothes, not another pair of footwear, carry no worldy posessions. Preach the gospel. If they hear you and accept you, well good for them. If they don't, well, shake of the dust from your sandals and just continue.

As I heard it , I was deeply impressed, not because I had never heard of it before, but the almost zen like quality of the advice. Not to care about worldy posessions, to do one's job, and get on with it, not to worry about how people recieve you. To believe that things will work out as you go along and not get caught up in achieving ,earning, keeping score, worrying and planning.

It's a great message and I think it comes at no better time- not just for me , but for most of the world.

Architecture is..

Any final sweeping philosophical statement about Architecture seems a bit trite to me.

Architecture has always been for me a quest - a search; both into the inner and about the outer world. Realization on both realms somehow seems inextricably connected to me.

My deep love for theory and history guides to a large extent my thinking and studio work. But in the end, after  all the obstruse theory and intellectually stimulating dialogue,  I feel ever more closer to Kahn's wonderfully mystic words "Architecture is......."

For me it is not an incomplete statement. 

It does not just mean that Architecture is something complete in itself; like the elements which just are.  It means that it also has to be complete in itself as tangible sensual experience - as form, space, light, shade and texture - actively affecting ones emotions and life positively in whatever small way, in every moment spent in it.

That quality in the end is what I think I have always wanted my architecture to have. An offering to the spirit of architecture.

Words and the "Idea" of India

Explosions. Terrorism.Attacks. Civilians dead... and India in the news for all the wrong reasons.

Any word uttered in this situation has to be very very thoughtful and right. Who are we to blame ?  "Non- state/Stateless" terrorists ?  Terrorists cannot not have a state. They have to live somewhere, train somewhere. True a nation like pakistan might not be in control over all of its own territory, and its own military.  If not, these are times to act on that. 

Another popular word used is " Muslim terrorists". What a colossal mistake. The right terminology is so much critical...because words mean a great deal. Language is all we have to communicate to each other and its so irresponsible and insensitive to use such flippant terms. Islamic fundamentalism apart, these terrorists are muslims only in name. We all have friends of the Islamic faith who are as much good citizens of india and the world as any other. Modern India has to shed this identification with religion for EACH and EVERY single thing....first in our everyday terminology.

Apart from mistakes in terminology, there's a lot of insensible and irresponsible ideas thrown around. First of all....things like "nuke pakistan".  Have we lost it ? It is as Arundhati roy so beautifully put it  "The end of imagination" when we advocate nuclear war.  Our families, our lives, our friends and our country and all of what we've achieved over 60 years will go back to the stone age...to barren and radioactive wasteland.  Jesus Christ !.. for God's sake let not terrorism make us as idiotic and freaking stupid as the terrorists.  Another one is let's wind up democracy and have military rule...if I couldnt understand the anger and sadness behind such a sentiment/statement , I would've  found it hilarious. 

Abandon democracy ?  The worlds grandest, biggest experiment in democracy ...to become what...pakistan... a defunct democracy where the army when it feels like takes over the country.....where such generals  say they'll make the people "eat grass" to have a nuclear bomb ? Thankyou,  I'd rather have food and the right to vote, and go to court and protest and demonstrate.  I won't have a military state like pakistan nor a  one party autocratic state like china - where i can't hold up a banner in the street and where if i'm picked up by the police - there is no place  for my parents to ask or enquire about me.  Democracy is what makes us different. It's precisely our democracy and secularism and multicultural heritage these lunatics are targetting.  More than 70 million people vote in India...70 million.... and not just that;  we are the worlds most representative democracy.... the no. of elected officials to represent each section of our country is simply staggering.  What more proof...do we need to realise when we criticize " The Government"....that this "Government" is basically us...you and me. And if only we did our jobs well - our country would be much better of.

Another issue is the blinding, surprising and befuddling  ignorance of the Indian constitution- of the "Idea" of India.  What do we mean when you and I say "I'm an Indian". Its a question we all should ask ourselves. And unfortunately most of us are surprisingly out of an answer. Being born somewher e between the himalayas and the indian ocean doesnt make you an indian. For me atleast the answer is simple. You might even laugh at it and say its too simplistic... too technical. Tell me if you have a better one. 

                                   I'm an  Indian because I believe in the constitution of India.Because I believe,  (to quote the preamble to the constitution) that "We,  the People of  India ",  have solemnly resolved to constitute India into a "Sovereign

Socialist** Secular Democratic Republic" and

"to secure to all its citizens Justice , Liberty and Equality and Fraternity"  . That is my creed for being an Indian.  Remember thats what we say in our pledge.... the "all indians are my brothers and sisters" thingy. It is what our elected officials say when they take the oath of office " to follow and protect the constitution of India" Today not only do we disrespect these symbols - these "statements of belief",  we are ignorant of them. And pathetically we see them as hampering our progress, we see them as our weakness - we see the right of every Indian to recieve a fair trial, to have civil liberties irrespective of our what our specific religion is.....as weakness and obstruction to "security" from terrorists.

If we know that this set of beliefs is what makes us Indians......would we use all these hateful terminologies, feelings and irresponsible ideas that we utter so self righteously ? The history of modern India - the modern "idea " of India starts somewhere around the beginning of the 20th century. I'm sure there are other points of view... which would trace origins to the gupta period or something. I'd be very interested in such views if any, to say the least.  Rationality,  developmental psychologists say is the ability to think from multiple points of view/perspectives....thats why reason is sometimes called perspectival reason.I wonder how very educated people can be bereft of this .

As some one in a design profession- and importantly as an architect - I've  been always proud that we as a profession have this special ability to think from different points of view - merge clashing ideas- be open to muliple ways of looking at things. At times like these when I find rightful  anger and sadness , giving away to blind hate ...even among some of us...as few as it may be..it somehow seems a very big let down. I say this because the "idea" of India requires one to have an open pluralistic way of looking at ourselves- at our history.... beyond the specifics of which mosque was really a temple and which temple was really a buddhist sanctuary a 1000 years ago.   

The idea that we may be different in religion, color,language, customs, physical appearence but that we are one people, that together we can govern ourselves and pursue liberty, equality, justice and individual happiness and our life's desires.....that is no petty idea...its a grand magnanimous vision..no petty mind can grasp it.  Whatever their faults maybe these are ideas/strains of thought that were given form by many of our leaders  of independence .....  one I know of is Nehru- who did it so beautifully in the discovery of India(whtever else his colossal mistakes may be).  The idea of an India where seeming opposites exist,  where layers of religion, culture, customs,  races, time periods , tradition and modernity are overlayed over each other and forms a rich kaleidoscope - a crazy chaotic yet harmonious and beautiful whole. That somehow is India for me.  

Many may say and have said,  mind you, that this is a  romantic, impractical and perfectly useless idealism at its  eloquent best.  It may well appear to be,  but for me idealism is not to be divorced from pragmatism. Ideals are what drives our pragmatism. Whenever it has not, we've seen genoicide, war and innocents persecuted in the name of pragmatism.  Afterall Hitler reduced unemployment in germany from 6 miliion to under half a million by starting armament produuction, war and killing jews.  He was practical wasn't he ?  Some tease me on the same note on my "Obama mania".... why I spent so much time listening to his speeches.  I did that for the same reason.......for the first time in my lifetime I saw a politician saying  look idealism and pragmatism can go together,  its not true that you have to sacrifice one for the other. 

Exactly my  sentiment and thats exactly what my answer is to people who reluctantly say RSS or shiv sena or some radical wing of hindu fundamentalism is the only solution. 

NO.  No idealogy of hate can be(or has ever been) defeated by another idealogy of hate. period. 

 

** The idea of socialism as the supreme court of India declared in a ruling is not a communist idealogy or term. It denotes social equality  - absence of discrimination on the basis of race creed color religion sex and so on.